This is kind of a personal experience. This year I'm finishing high school so I need to take my Bachelor's Degree. I have to admit I haven't been learning much over the year, and I have one week until the paper tests (real challenge) begins. Today I have learned all day. I have been rejecting invitations to go out (although I really needed a sunbath and a walk in the park, or a dance in a club) but NO! So after learning at Romanian (yeap I'm from Romania) I found myself talking alone in English, which sometimes I do but voluntary, this time I haven't realized I was talking. So I went and told my mom she's got to take me to the doctor because I haven't opened the computer all day. I mean... me... to stay an hour without the PC turned on? Come on, where am I, in a cave? I turned it on I'm afraid at 7 pm and that hurt. If I'm going to do this all week, I'm going to go insane. And after a break of playing Need for Speed Underground (I know, very old game, but my favorite after NFS:MW) I had to learn at English. After that I think I went insane. Not literally. I think.
Anyway... I'm writing this post to share the feeling of doing everything in the last minute. God I have to learn the whole year at three subjects!!! Thank god I'm good with history. And thank god I still have a week I hope I'll be in the mood to learning so much now...
I have seen that my friends are working at the same pace: being totally cool and they freak out these days :)) Anyway, we're still calm because we have left a WEEK, imagine that: a week filled with 12 hours a day (actually 24 - but at least 10 hours I sleep ... and well 2 hours of break?) that I can spend learning all the lessons I have just pretended to until now.
You may have noticed I sound a little panicked :)) but believe me I'm not. I feel sorry for my mind that is going to speak non-sense starting tomorrow:)) but that's not such a big tragedy.
"I don't know you... but it's alright..." *singing*
You, like almost people in the world have a band or a singer that you like their songs so much you could listen forever to them and never get bored. You know that feeling when you're listening to their new album or single, that feeling of joy and euphoria and fury because you want more and more songs from them.
My favorite band is The Ramus. They're from Finland and I've got to admit that northern bands have something unique in their music. I'm not saying other don't have, but there's a high chance of finding a special band from the North.
It happens at night when I can't sleep, when I can't stop thinking about the next day or other things to want music. And with the right songs I fall asleep in a few minutes. I hate that I never remember what was the last song I listened to. Anyway, from the millions of songs, I know I'm waiting for some that are special.
And when I have nothing to do, I can't find myself, or I don't know what to write about I know that music will always get me on the right track. And I have a strong connection with the sounds and when I find my soul in the lyrics then I really like that song!
Because I can't help it I'm going to link to The Rasmus' latest hit: I'm a mess. Their newest album is going to be released on 18 April. OMG! Just 5 more days and I can't wait!
Now, ignoring my obsession for this band, I'm going to post a song I discovered recently. She's the favorite singer of Lauri Ylonen, lead singer of The Rasmus, but don't mind me. I don't like her because she's his favorite, but because this song in particular gives me an interesting feeling.
The lyrics are written by Bjork and I'm glad that someone finally agrees with me: " I have seen water, it's water, that's all..." It's not like I wouldn't want to see Niagara Falls, but I hate to know the names of a thousand rivers at geography. Come on, it's just water! Anyway I don't fancy the song because of this part but it has something cosmic, a feeling of peace, but of sadness, a feeling of knowing it all and yet knowing nothing.
Outside it's a lovely evening. The sun is long gone and I am losing myself in time. Memories flash back like an old movie. And some of them are not even memories at all, are my dreams.
I am waiting for summer impatiently and this night especially, and the music in my ears reminds me of freedom. Those moments when you can run, when you can hide, when you're laughing, and it doesn't matter if only one friend is beside you, it matters that you are the world. I am the world!
No matter how much you've cried, how much you've lost, you are free now! The whole world kneels before your eyes. It's one of those nights when you are happy no matter what lies ahead. The universe is looking at you with joy, and the stars are slowly appearing on the dark blue sky. Freedom is not yours. You are freedom!
No one can understand your euphoria, no one can win against your laughter, and start to imagine who knows what reason why are you like this. Only if they knew... only if they knew that you have no reason at all! It's just you escaping from reality, from this everyday nightmare. Now, you're living your own version of life.
There is no more wrong or right in the world, there is no more suffering, just art, music and beautiful meaningless words. Beside this euphoria side of yours, there is something that bothers you, but for now you have buried it deep inside. Don't let it come to light, not now that the night has just begun.
