Today I learnt that experience has to be shared. I met a one of the million people that want to change the world, but to do that money is needed. And a lot of it if you want to do something good. Of course, there are situations and situations.
The main point is to go for your dreams. No matter how silly they seem. Someday you'll look back at the time that passed and you'll wonder why you didn't do anything when you had the chance. Time doesn't wait, and it feels like years pass faster and faster.
We all began a lot of things and we never finished them. For some of them we didn't even had the courage to make the first step. You don't need to see the whole stairs. Now I know that, and what matters is that life doesn't go backwards. If you want to do something about the past change your present. Don't think too much in the future because that is also losing yourself.
I'm finally done with all the exams, and I am sad. I am sad because a whole novel has ended. Another will begin shortly, but right now I'm not ready. I need to relive some of the past events, the ones that made me happy. I want to remember all the friendships, all the gossip, all the adventures. It feels now that all moments when I felt down had so simple solutions. Everything was just a story that I had the chance to write it at my own will, and yet I didn't see anything in front of me.
I am not sorry for the decisions I made, and I wouldn't turn back time to change anything, I would only return to do something more, to achieve more memories in all this time.
When something is ending, always something else will begin, but before the end make sure to have done everything you wanted until now. But, still, if you didn't, remember to take advantage of future situations.
Today I learnt a chapter of your life isn't over until you're disconnected from all the things that binds you to it. When it's time you're not afraid anymore, and you go on your own road, and looking back makes you feel proud that you achieved something and at same time it makes you sad because those moments are unique, they are not coming back.
This is kind of a personal experience. This year I'm finishing high school so I need to take my Bachelor's Degree. I have to admit I haven't been learning much over the year, and I have one week until the paper tests (real challenge) begins. Today I have learned all day. I have been rejecting invitations to go out (although I really needed a sunbath and a walk in the park, or a dance in a club) but NO! So after learning at Romanian (yeap I'm from Romania) I found myself talking alone in English, which sometimes I do but voluntary, this time I haven't realized I was talking. So I went and told my mom she's got to take me to the doctor because I haven't opened the computer all day. I mean... me... to stay an hour without the PC turned on? Come on, where am I, in a cave? I turned it on I'm afraid at 7 pm and that hurt. If I'm going to do this all week, I'm going to go insane. And after a break of playing Need for Speed Underground (I know, very old game, but my favorite after NFS:MW) I had to learn at English. After that I think I went insane. Not literally. I think.
Anyway... I'm writing this post to share the feeling of doing everything in the last minute. God I have to learn the whole year at three subjects!!! Thank god I'm good with history. And thank god I still have a week I hope I'll be in the mood to learning so much now...
I have seen that my friends are working at the same pace: being totally cool and they freak out these days :)) Anyway, we're still calm because we have left a WEEK, imagine that: a week filled with 12 hours a day (actually 24 - but at least 10 hours I sleep ... and well 2 hours of break?) that I can spend learning all the lessons I have just pretended to until now.
You may have noticed I sound a little panicked :)) but believe me I'm not. I feel sorry for my mind that is going to speak non-sense starting tomorrow:)) but that's not such a big tragedy.
So, hello Euphoria xD
I think this is the last part of TWWY(The War With Yourself). About life in general, there are a lot of things to talk about. I don't know if you're in the mood of reading all these crazy ideas that we all know surround us.
situation "A": Your parents control your life. If that's the case, you kind of have a problem. But, usually in this situation there are certain advantages that other don't have: maybe they don't let you go out much but they buy you a cool audio system (for example) or something similar. Maybe they let you call your friends at home a lot. My advice is to find an advantage and take the credit for it.
situation "B": You feel like you don't have any real friends. Well, then you have a serious problem. It's hard to know there isn't anyone to give you a friendly hug, a person with whom you can be sincere but I'm sure you know better than me what's it like. Good people are all over the world, even if you don't believe me. You can find a friend from another country, you can share all the secrets without the fear that he'll tell, but one day this won't be enough. Time to get out in the world, alone, and search for a sincere person who would like to spend time with you. It's going to be a long ride, because friendship doesn't form in a few days or weeks, sometimes it takes only a few months, sometimes it needs years. If you're part of a group (even at work) it's good to see if you can have a special connection with someone around there, because it's good to share most of your time with a friend with whom you have the same interests. I could talk all day about friendship, but if this part of your life is missing you better do something now, because later you'll regret. Oh, and you can keep your fake friends too, they're good when you are bored at home and don't have anyone to go out with.
situation "C": A lot of things are happening in your life. You're an over-dramatic person or you don't have a choice but to be one. You make a scandal even out of your smallest problem. Make a list of the things that are ok in your life, and the ones that are not, and change anything you like slowly, without telling everyone a thousand times a day what is happening or what happened. I'm talking here about the people who want to change this lifestyle. And, if you have a life like in Gossip Girl, then, my sincerest congratulations, because you have an interesting life that's filled with a lot of events, and people and friends, and love and everything you wish for or not. If you're like this crazy girl/boy with a lot of popularity and you think you got bored of it, trust me, you're not yet. It takes a lot to imagine the perfect life in the perfect conditions without getting bored, but the hardest part is to actually live it. So, even if you're exaggerating things what matters if you're living them.
That's the problem with people: they don't know when to stop dreaming and start living. So, no matter who you are, what you think you are, live for the dream! And trust me, when you want something there is nothing that can stop you, but your own personality and thoughts. So, if you want to blame someone, the only "criminal" is you.
There is a quote from Dollhouse, a very interesting TV series that says: "She's living the dream." "Whose dream?" "Who's next." Make sure you're living your dream and not anyone's else.
