Asus Zenfone 2 Laser ZE500KL

In some countries you'll find this model with 8 mp on back camera, in others with 13 mp (which would be normal). The name is the same for every model out there. No letters or numbers to let us know the difference. That's a bad move, Asus, very bad! In other cases you'll find differences between the battery capacity: one version has 2080 mAh and another version 2400 mAh.

Poor those who got the version with 8 mp camera, and 2070 mAh battery life. People on youtube and the internet in general, love the version of 5.5" (ZE550KL). That's bad again, because I don't want a screen that looks like my 7" tablet. That's why tablets were invented. I don't have big hands, or face, and I'd like to hold a phone to my ears, not a tablet. 5" inches will always be enough for me. I can't make tests on this phone. Only if I buy it. And I would totally buy it. But I need to know that battery life is at least 4 hours of screen time. All I ask is 4 hours. In the past, my phone used to have those performances. Now I'm lucky if I get almost 3 hours.

Why do you like so much big phones? They don't even fit in my pockets. I need a bag to carry the phone with me. I can't sit down with such a phone. At least, make something pliable, dear companies. I admit I like a big screen, but not on my phone. I don't carry my tablet every day. It would be hell if I did. I like the new notebooks 2 in 1, they are small and great. That is a real invention, not the phablets. I know there are many enthusiasts for phablets, and I respect you guys, I just want my part of this Android world, with phones that are 5" maximum.

I'm not saying I'd ever give up Laser's screen for Sony Z1 Compact screen of 4.3", but for the battery life maybe I would. The rest is debatable. I expect great performances from a phone. I need to play games, listen to music, chat on social networks, talk on the phone, write messages, stare at my screen (I like staring at any touchscreen, I know it's almost a disease). And I need that all these actions keep my phone up for a day. I'm not asking for two days (what I would get if I'd buy a Sony device), I am just asking for a day of full usage by a maniac. I am not saying I'll stay 10 hours on the phone. 4 hours are enough.

I am so crazy I am writing an article about a battery from a phone I never held in my hands. If you, reader, are in possession of such a phone, please go to Settings->Battery(or whatever that's called on your devie)->Screen and tell me how many hours of activity on the screen you got after a full day and how much battery left. Of course, provided you have 2070 mAh battery. Otherwise, thank you, but don't bother. I know the 5.5" is quite good on battery life and since in my country the 2400 mAh on the 5" inches model doesn't exist, I don't really need any benchmarks.

The processor, SnapDragon 410 sounds great. On Xperia M4 Aqua it heats the phone very much, but that's the only device that I found with such problems.

I need to find myself a new obsession as I know everything that's on the internet about this one, right? Well, here begins another story of mine, but that's for next time.

In love with Lucifer

 

Have you ever been in love with the devil? Even if he looks just like a normal boy with the face of an angel, we all know when the devil has taken control over our lives. "In love with Lucifer" is a horror romance story I'm writing on a website called wattpad.com. I want to make a summary of the story here, because this is very important for me.
The main characters are Helen Whitakers, Lucifer(how could he not be here?) and Melissa Oakley - Helen's friend. That's until now. In the future I may add some more.

First of all, here's the link to the story if you want to read it: In love with Lucifer (it will open in a new window). If you are using mobile here's the code for the story on wattpad: 24883614 (here's the link to the mobile version of the website: m.wattpad.com ). My username on wattpad is: MixSalvatore (I have some stories in Romanian if you are interested).

Helen is a highschool girl who never fell in love. She likes boys, but just not enough. One day she dreams of a handsome man that rescues her. When she looks at his face she discovers he is as beautiful as evil one can be. She's not sure if he's an angel or a demon, but he tells her he is her angel actually. She doesn't want to believe, but when she wakes up from this dream she is confused and starts searching information about the devil. Soon they will meet again, in reality this time. He says he is trying to save her (at a party), but in her mind only damage has been done. 

Melissa has been her best friend for a few years and she is not aware of Helen's encounters with the supernatural. For her, life is simple and dramatic only in the thoughts of boys, highschool and family. Other secrets will lie in her closet too, but more on that later.

Helen's family is not an ordinary family. They also have a lot to hide. Her father will give her a clue on the things, but that raises just more questions than answers in Helen's mind. Lucifer wants her, she claims she hates him and for some time her life is going in the difficult ways because of her connections with the devil. She will find out about a group "The Fallen" who want revenge against Lucifer, and of course, against her. 

She is Helen in my vision.

This story takes place on Earth, Hell, Heaven and a supposed Paradise. You will find out more on the on-going chapters. I am currently at Chapter 4: Insidious Places . If you want to be updated with the new chapters that are coming you can follow me on twitter: @blachshadowangel. 

Dreams

 

I can change destinies. I can be God. I can answer all their questions, I can be the Devil, I can be everything and nothing at the same time. That's what does a writer. That feeling, that power is amazing. Too sad in real life doesn't go like that. Too bad I'm just a character in the play of life. Having no control sometimes is hard.

Stories always helped me go on, because I would write about something exciting, impossible and yet a solution out of everything comes at the end of the story. It's hard to deal with reality, but combined with imagination and dreaming you get a great mix. There was this night when I thought I knew everything. I have been having questions for a long time, too many questions I'd say... and suddenly I got all the answers I needed. I was God for a few hours.

I said then that dreams are really coming true when the stars light the sky. The detail that I missed was that the stars that we see are already dead. So, what we see on the big sky at night are just some colored dead space material. So are dreams sometimes; dead for a long time... It's us that refuse to see it, it's me that says things are better later than never. And maybe they are, or I just saw another star...

Like yesterday

I know it's kind of old, but I love this song. It reminds me of things that are ending or already ended, of things that I need to run from or other that I want to run to...

It reminds me of all the people that I want to kick out of my life and of all the trouble that we go to make new friends, to keep friendships and to end them.

And last, but not least it reminds me of those love stories that you want to run from. Someone that you loved, but disappointed you and you want them out of your life.

I guess sometimes things happen, and not necessarily happy things... I don't love you like I did yesterday... And maybe as we forget to love life, friends, family, a lover, life also forgets to embrace us with joy. 

There was I time I tried to put a smile on my face nonstop, but finally my wall is down. One cannot pretend for the rest of his life. I am not made of steel. I don't regret what happened, I regret what didn't happen, I regret the opportunities I had to save people... to save me. I regret I lost a friend. I regret I lost maybe more... Lovers come and go, but friends are made to be there forever. Looks like not anymore...

After one liter of Coke xD

 

Hello, world. Finally I have some energy, actually I have so much that I could spend it with everyone. What I want to talk about are some little things we need to confront in life.

Let's begins with those who talk nonsense (I know I can write a whole novel about this subject, so I'll only be covering a little of it). For example, I was coming home today, and a neighbor was talking with my grandma. I knew it was better if I avoided them, but that's life. Well, my neighbor started talking about how careful I need to be in life, to learn, to find a husband, and from here begins the drama. He said that my grandma should find me a husband, a good one of course. God, I so hate this discussions. I said "good day" and I left. Normally, that's called rudeness. I call it "avoiding stupid conversations".

Today I discovered I had a song (which unfortunately I can't share because it's in Romanian) with these very interesting lyrics. It tells a story that's funny and unnecessary; very similar to one of mine. But you know that moment when destiny follows you, and when the ironic situations reappear when you least expect them. Although I don't believe in destiny: one makes his own road, sometimes things happen that trigger different emotions like: ironic laughter, sarcasm, pain, memories (worst ones), drama and of course the "I told you so" phrase (my favorite one, followed by some mad laughter).

The best moments in my life are the ones when I don't love. And right know, it's perfect. I can choose anyone I want to, I can search slowly for the right person without "the blind effect" (you know when you're in love). I'm so sorry for the ones who suffer for some guy/girl that doesn't deserve. Best advice is to move on. Live your life. Be selfish for a while.

Do you know how it's like when no one understands you? Well, they don't need to. It's enough if you understand yourself. I mean you know best why you did something and what for. You know your goal, where you want to get to. Yeah, it's hard, but that the price for being unique (but try not to fall into the superficial act).

These are all the truths I can share today. I hope so, at least. More would be... too much? I love Coke ^_^

TWWY:Lying to be perfect

 

The War with Yourself: "Lying to be perfect" (the movie of course) is a beautiful way of standing up to everyday challenges. For those of you who haven't seen it yet, I will tell you a little about it. It's about a girl who's fat and has this bad opinion of herself. She is a very good writer and works at a magazine, but she can't progress because she doesn't have a pretty face and body. So she creates this character, Belinda Apple (she uses an image of herself on Photoshop) and suddenly she gets very popular and gets to publish book. The only problem is that she has to make a public appearance at the book party, and unfortunately you can't photoshop yourself in reality. If you want to know the whole story, watch the movie. You won't regret it. 

Now, I don't know what problems do you have, but the story made me realize that it doesn't matter how you look, how old are you or where do you come from. What matters is how you let people talk to you. If you have low self-esteem you tend to accept when people tell you that you're not good enough. That, I think, is the worst someone can do: believe that they can't. There are a lot of talented people who don't know their value. There a lot of normal people who think they don't deserve this, that. Well, let me tell you: you don't need to lie to be perfect. You ought to do the things you feel, and if you fancy something, you have a person that inspires you, well let that inspiration make you feel good. You don't need to become someone else. I'm sure your friends are happy with yourself. It's you who's got to accept that this is your life and if you want to fight for it, then do it. What are you waiting for?

I don't have low self-esteem, I got over that problem a long time ago. Not that I was imperfect ever, it's just that I couldn't see the perfection in me. Everyone has that in their own unique way. You know well that beauty is seen differently in different eyes. So is perfection. Everybody keeps saying that first you need to love yourself. Let me tell you something. Yeah, you can have a boyfriend/girlfriend, a perfect life but if you don't love yourself, if you don't respect yourself, all of these are a lie and sooner or later everything in which you don't believe will go away. I want to share an experience of mine, but I don't want to let anyone to know who I'm talking about (anyway you can't because... well because you can't, I'm not giving any clues). I just can tell you that once I met someone (unfortunately a lot of people like this) and this person didn't love herself. She was beautiful and talented but she needed someone to tell her that. Of course, we all need to be praised from time to time, but to achieve something you actually need to believe in yourself. Well, this friend of mine had so much opportunities, and luck, and God, her life was perfect! And she couldn't see it. My friends always said they want to be in her place, and I wanted to for a time, I got to admit. But she didn't knew her value, so all her talents and her beauty faded away. I'm not saying she's some "crazy bitch" right now, I'm just saying when you see her you see just gray. Just like a shadow that wanders and can't be taken to her real value. I couldn't do anything to make her realize she's worth a lot more than she's thinking, but I guess some people don't want to be saved. She didn't have ambition, not even a bit, that was her biggest flaw. But, you, everyone has it, because is the main law of survival: you keep fighting because you want to get to a point: personal satisfaction. The ones who don't want to fight for themselves are a little weird... in the bad weird way, not funny. I mean, who can be pleased with their unpleasant life? If it doesn't make you feel good, you want to change it, right?

Being always happy is a hard thing to do, trying to keep going - the same, but what matters is that you're feeling good, and when you're down there is always a song that makes you feel better, always a friend to make a silly face or tell a funny joke (if you have any sense of humor, which I hope you have). The point is, there is always a way, you just have to follow it. And yeah, it's going to be hard sometimes, and you'll need help from friends, computer, games, music, life itself, but it's going to be worth it. You'll get to a point where you are pleased with yourself, with people around you and then, you'll set your next goal. And we all know how good it feels to have achieved something. Always keep in mind that what you want matters, and if others tell you can't do it, it's because they would be afraid to do it in your place. And if they are experts in that area they're afraid you'll be better.

P.S. Yeah, the song is intentionally chosen. You can! Good luck ^_^

TWWY: Life

I think this is the last part of TWWY(The War With Yourself). About life in general, there are a lot of things to talk about. I don't know if you're in the mood of reading all these crazy ideas that we all know surround us. 

situation "A": Your parents control your life. If that's the case, you kind of have a problem. But, usually in this situation there are certain advantages that other don't have: maybe they don't let you go out much but they buy you a cool audio system (for example) or something similar. Maybe they let you call your friends at home a lot. My advice is to find an advantage and take the credit for it. 

situation "B": You feel like you don't have any real friends. Well, then you have a serious problem. It's hard to know there isn't anyone to give you a friendly hug, a person with whom you can be sincere but I'm sure you know better than me what's it like. Good people are all over the world, even if you don't believe me. You can find a friend from another country, you can share all the secrets without the fear that he'll tell, but one day this won't be enough. Time to get out in the world, alone, and search for a sincere person who would like to spend time with you. It's going to be a long ride, because friendship doesn't form in a few days or weeks, sometimes it takes only a few months, sometimes it needs years. If you're part of a group (even at work) it's good to see if you can have a special connection with someone around there, because it's good to share most of your time with a friend with whom you have the same interests. I could talk all day about friendship, but if this part of your life is missing you better do something now, because later you'll regret. Oh, and you can keep your fake friends too, they're good when you are bored at home and don't have anyone to go out with.

situation "C": A lot of things are happening in your life. You're an over-dramatic person or you don't have a choice but to be one. You make a scandal even out of your smallest problem. Make a list of the things that are ok in your life, and the ones that are not, and change anything you like slowly, without telling everyone a thousand times a day what is happening or what happened. I'm talking here about the people who want to change this lifestyle. And, if you have a life like in Gossip Girl, then, my sincerest congratulations, because you have an interesting life that's filled with a lot of events, and people and friends, and love and everything you wish for or not. If you're like this crazy girl/boy with a lot of popularity and you think you got bored of it, trust me, you're not yet. It takes a lot to imagine the perfect life in the perfect conditions without getting bored, but the hardest part is to actually live it. So, even if you're exaggerating things what matters if you're living them.

That's the problem with people: they don't know when to stop dreaming and start living. So, no matter who you are, what you think you are, live for the dream! And trust me, when you want something there is nothing that can stop you, but your own personality and thoughts. So, if you want to blame someone, the only "criminal" is you.

There is a quote from Dollhouse, a very interesting TV series that says: "She's living the dream." "Whose dream?" "Who's next." Make sure you're living your dream and not anyone's else.

For writers/future writers

 

Those who don't write can also read. Remember, curiosity didn't kill the cat. It's just the cat was curious about the dog. Those who write may understand better what I'm trying to say here. 

Since I've started writing different things: like random poems, texts, stories, I have been encouraged to do so. At first there were just friends, or random people who were polite. Anyway, I stopped showing off every new creation for some time, because let me tell you, it's boring to have a friend that shows you everything he writes. May be interesting, but you can't tell him every time how cool he is, first of all because he may become too full of himself when it's not the case, or may be disappointed if the rest of the world doesn't have the same reaction and let's face it: you have problems on your on. What matters is if writing makes you feel better. My first story was when I was in 4th grade and I discovered it years later and I was like: OMG I wrote a story of 20 pages in 4th grade! And I was so proud of myself. That story, still, no one knows about it. It was about aliens. I liked aliens in that grade. I'd say it's still a pretty good story, but that's the one that made me go on because I liked how I felt in that world. A world created by me, and this is going to be a little  selfish, but it was for me. Later, I learned to stop writing everything just for myself because I had a few fans, to put it this way.

There are many options you have... I've met people who never show off, and they have talent, but I understand them as they are as selfish as I was. I met people who don't have any talent and they still write. As long as one person likes it I guess it's ok to go on. If on this blog only one person would read, I'd still continue to post. I have another blog that's not popular at all, maybe because it was my first one, maybe I didn't know how to make it more popular, and for some I didn't wanted to. But, I have a few friends who told me: "Hey, why do you want to delete it? It's your work. You loved it for a while", and they were totally right. I couldn't just erase my work. It isn't great, but this how everyone begins with little words that some day will transform into a great story, or article. I'm not going to post a link to it, because it's in Romanian, and as long as people from all over the world are reading I see no point. Anyway, you'll say that if a "few friends" asked me not to delete it, then I still had a reason not to. I'm telling you only two persons are still reading it for sure. One is a friend and the other a total stranger. 

Everyone goes to different genres, and different styles. Don't panic if someone says it's not good. Ask them for a reason, because they may not like the genre. And if they give you a logical reason, maybe it's time you would look at your work and you'd ask yourself if it need an improvement. These days, I'm surprised by what things get published. But sometimes it all becomes for the public. When you're writing something for yourself you're free to do whatever you want, and sometimes these are the best art works. When you're writing for the public, you'll only please a certain number of people. What's important is if you are among those people. If you're not, I think you lost your way. As you may have seen I wrote about love more than about other things. Maybe some of you would've liked something else, but that's what I like, and you're free to choose what to read. 

If I had requests to write about something specific, in most cases I'd accept because I like challenges, and maybe I'd actually learn something. But if it's something I really don't like, I guess I'll pass because I won't be good enough and you wouldn't be satisfied by my work even if it's about the subject you wanted. When I feel like I have something to share I do it, but if I'm not pleased by what I wrote then I don't publish it, even if I haven't written anything for some time.

I like to think that writers understand the world best, and they know best what genres define them and if the words written are who they are or just a mask they like to wear to entertain. I don't want to be a journalist, so my goal will never be to spread gossip or to judge the lives of known personalities and I can't give you advice in that direction. Here it's a more complicated path, that once you choose it you need to be prepared for anything that you'll have to write and be objective about it.

P.S. I chose to post photos from Gossip Girl, because I find the TV series not only interesting, but it has a deep understanding of social life, friends, family, love. It's every normal day from the perspective of popularity, originality and it's like this interesting reality you would like to live in as any of the characters, because they all have something to teach you, or entertain you.

TWWY: Love

Remember what I said about The War With Yourself=TWWY? Well, last time I kind of given you some theories. They work, but you may want to know about the problems you'll face.

The fact that you need to change some habits it's not so easy. I recommended an social life so you don't fall on depression. But eventually you will anyway. Then you'll read the other post, and you won't find any advice from it anymore. Everything will be superficial. Well, I told you is not going to be a smooth road. You need to set a goal, but if you're not sure what you should do, what's the best decision, well, then, things are getting complicated. It's dangerous to let life choose. Sometimes it works, but just going with the flow may not lead you to the best place.

Let's take some specific examples: love. Read this only if you have problems. And if you don't know me, because if you do, I don't what you to take anything personal... Whatever.


situation "A":You're in love with someone and you can't forget him/her (I'll just use him from now on, because it's kind of weird to put both every time, but you imagine your specific case). Think that if this love is poisoning, you need to respect yourself. You need to understand that there are billions of people, and there isn't just one right for you; there are many. And you can meet them all, you can be stuck on choosing, but remember: you always have a choice, always. But I'm afraid that 90% of them depend on you. And if you like: oh, I'll never forget him because he was so perfect... etc. Then, why did he leave? Why did he do that and that if he's perfect? Same thing goes for yourself. If you're not perfect, why would you crave for that person? I'm not trying to say that you're less than someone, I'm trying to make you understand that if you want a change in your life, you need to make different things. You can't expect an improvement in your love life, if you're just taking the same decisions. You can't begin something if you just say you will.

situation "B": You like many persons, and you don't know whom to choose from. My advice, a hypocrite one (if you still consider yourself a totally sincere person), would be to choose them all. Not at once, of course, but this life is filled with different roads, and if you can try as many as you can, why not? Yeah, you may suffer and all, but no matter what you choose you'll suffer eventually. Tell me if I'm wrong. But, if you want just one of them, you should look in your heart and see who you love the most. If every one of them looks right, you should investigate better: one of three apples is definitely rotten. Maybe I'm wrong with the apples, but with people never. You know you chose right when you're fully happy, when you don't care about other things, when you're ready to face the problems that will come (at least at the beginning). You can make a list of the qualities and flaws of each person, but you know no matter if one has many qualities than the others, what is important is how you feel with a certain person. The right choice may be wrong for others, so I'm afraid friends can't help much. I was advised by friends, and they wished me the best, but what mattered was in my heart, not in theirs. That's why when you ask someone what he things about your problem, they'll always tell you their choices, not yours, or they'll just tell you to choose by yourself. Good luck. Even if the road isn't easy, you usually figure it out anyway. So, don't worry too much.

situation "C": You don't have anyone in your life. If you're down on yourself, let me tell you without any resentment: you're a fool. Remember how ugly people have a cool guy/girl as a boyfriend/girlfriend? Well, these ugly persons don't feel ugly at all. And they don't send to the opposite sex that they're ugly. On the contrary I'd say. Everyone is special in their own way. You probably heard this like a million times, but I'm sure you have moments when you look in the mirror and you love yourself way too much. Or you see others who are full of themselves and you hate them. But did you stop to ask yourself if you hate them because they don't care much about others, or because they have confidence and they walk in a room knowing what they value? Yeah, they may exaggerate a little (more), but they let opportunities come to them because they think they deserve it. You should think the same. As you may have noticed, in this situation I talked about you, not the other mysterious person. That's because you are the problem here. To be more specific, your attitude. You may think: who is this person who dares to tell me what to think? But, I'm not here to do that. It's your choice if you want to change something or not. If you like the results until now, then that's perfect. If not, you should do something. May not feel right at first, but "something" is always better than "nothing". 

P.S. Wicked or not, it's still love^_^ What is yours counts. What you want to be yours must be clear in your mind.

Love is the answer

Behind every smile is love. Whether it is love for a friend, lover, family, for a laughter, for a desire, it is love! And is everywhere we go. Even if we're talking about a devilish sexy smile, it's still love (maybe for the dark, for the wicked, for the devil, BUT LOVE). 

My question and yours have one single answer: love. We're both hoping for a dream to come true. We're both awaiting day by day for wonders to enter our lives. And they will, eventually, when we'll be ready to truly believe, when we would be able to accept the truth behind all the masks, when we can take that much happiness. You may be impatient as I am, but we know the most important secret: it's going to happen, it will soon be true. No more dreaming in our minds, it will become as real as you and I are. 

Nothing is impossible. My faith is eternal. I do believe in the one dream that will make me happy. And I hope that you also have a dream and eventually it will make us happy. This time, I know the end of the story: it's just a beginning of another beautiful story that will materialize into this world in the moment I will blindly believe.

There are no more questions left to ask, because love was the answer to all of them and I hope that love will take us on the right path. I am smiling now, because I know you'll be smiling too when you'll completely understand.