Words are beyond

 

You know when you have that feeling that you have to do something really big. When the moment calls you and only you. I may confuse you right now, but you have to admit there are so many great moments there when words are beyond understanding. They are so unnecessary that by talking you are ruining your own dream. 

It happens sometimes to find happiness. And it happens then to find difficulty. But "in the middle of difficulty lies opportunity" (Albert Einstein); I know he's a physician and mathematician and you probably hate both subjects, but he was right. When you are alone and sad you wake up in the morning you never expected and receive a big opportunity. There are various situations which differ and I'm sure most of you say I'm not right, but someday you will see what I see almost everyday: light besides the shadows.

Words are necessary though and when discovering a person they are beyond everything else. Sometimes one word explains it all: the love, the pain, the suffering, the rain, the sun, the happiness, the lies, the truth, the sacrifices, the cowardliness... And I put your words before everything else. It's a difficult task, but I suppose you are ready for it.

The Secret

Not about a TV series, not about music, not about my or your heart, but a documentary (or book, whatever version you prefer). Yeap, the biggest and the greatest documentary of all: The Secret.

I said once that it doesn't work, that I don't understand it. Actually, it was just a matter of time. When you're waiting for a wonder, it's always about time. And as many say: time doesn't forgive. It may forget in my opinion, but it never forgives. The moment you lost, is lost forever, as long as you're dead.

Yeah, I'm being sarcastic here. Everything you want you can get it, but you have to really want it and be sure about your dream. I am the pessimistic type, I have to admit, and I have been for a long time. But I cannot disagree with my power of will. I mean it. To stand up after every time you fall you need to be willing to start over again. To do that you need power, a lot of it. It's best if it comes from the inside, but outside reasons are good too.

So you want something really bad? Fight for it, no matter the time, the difficulties you face. You can really achieve a dream.

After one liter of Coke xD

 

Hello, world. Finally I have some energy, actually I have so much that I could spend it with everyone. What I want to talk about are some little things we need to confront in life.

Let's begins with those who talk nonsense (I know I can write a whole novel about this subject, so I'll only be covering a little of it). For example, I was coming home today, and a neighbor was talking with my grandma. I knew it was better if I avoided them, but that's life. Well, my neighbor started talking about how careful I need to be in life, to learn, to find a husband, and from here begins the drama. He said that my grandma should find me a husband, a good one of course. God, I so hate this discussions. I said "good day" and I left. Normally, that's called rudeness. I call it "avoiding stupid conversations".

Today I discovered I had a song (which unfortunately I can't share because it's in Romanian) with these very interesting lyrics. It tells a story that's funny and unnecessary; very similar to one of mine. But you know that moment when destiny follows you, and when the ironic situations reappear when you least expect them. Although I don't believe in destiny: one makes his own road, sometimes things happen that trigger different emotions like: ironic laughter, sarcasm, pain, memories (worst ones), drama and of course the "I told you so" phrase (my favorite one, followed by some mad laughter).

The best moments in my life are the ones when I don't love. And right know, it's perfect. I can choose anyone I want to, I can search slowly for the right person without "the blind effect" (you know when you're in love). I'm so sorry for the ones who suffer for some guy/girl that doesn't deserve. Best advice is to move on. Live your life. Be selfish for a while.

Do you know how it's like when no one understands you? Well, they don't need to. It's enough if you understand yourself. I mean you know best why you did something and what for. You know your goal, where you want to get to. Yeah, it's hard, but that the price for being unique (but try not to fall into the superficial act).

These are all the truths I can share today. I hope so, at least. More would be... too much? I love Coke ^_^

TVD - Chapter 3 - Part 1

Even if you don’t believe it, the journey of our favorite “almost couple” didn’t had any hot scenes, because Elena kept her head on the ground and as they were closing to Bridgeport she kept thinking about Stefan and only Stefan.

“Have you thought what are you going to tell him when we get there?” Damon asked.

“Yes. I want to know how things stand.”

“And how do you think they stand, Elena?”

“I don’t know. That’s why we’re finding him. I need answers.”

“You said you need me.”

“You know Damon what I meant then.”

“I don’t know. Tell me, Elena, what did you mean?”

“I meant that you’re my friend and that I really needed you on this journey and I’m grateful, Damon, for what you did for me.”

“What I did? I killed Jeremy, I killed Vicky, I hurt Bonnie in the past. What I did for you, Elena?”

“You sacrificed yourself for me. Like a few days ago… like when I and…”

“Stefan are together?” Damon continued. “Why do you believe I should sacrifice myself then when you have Stefan by your side?”

“Damon, you know what I mean. This journey must be hard for you.”

“Actually I’m enjoying it. After all, I am alone with you.” He smiled one of his killer smiles.

After a while he had to stop the car. In front of them was a figure.  Elena didn’t even think about it. She came out of the car without thinking and she hugged the man. Damon was shouting that she should be careful, but he knew too. They knew the man who appeared from nowhere was Stefan.

“Stefan, my love! I’ve missed you so much!” Elena cried.

He remained still, he didn’t hugged her back, he just stared in front. He stared at the car, or who knows if he actually was seeing something.

“Stefan? Talk to me, Stefan!”

“You and Damon should head back to Mystic Falls. You have nothing to do here, for the moment.” Stefan said harshly.

“And why we should do that?” Damon asked before Elena could say something.

“Because these lands are dangerous.”

“And you’ll let Elena get hurt?”

“Never! That’s why I’m telling you to leave. Now everything’s changed.”

“Stefan, why don’t you look at me?” Elena asked through the tears.

He just smiled and looked at Damon and made a sign with his hand that Damon should leave with Elena.

“Do you trust me little brother?”

“With what?”

“To be alone with her? You know, if you’re out of the picture I might actually do things.”

“Do whatever you want.” Stefan said. “But don’t touch Elena!”

“So you still care. Why don’t you return?”

“Damon, things got complicated. You should be happy. We don’t owe each other anything anymore.”

“C’mon Stefan. We’re not talking about us. We’re talking about Elena, here. Don’t you have anything to say about it?”

“No.” Stefan said calmly.

“Stefan what’s happening? You know you can trust me.” Elena said.

“Not much. I’m bad now as you can see. Oh, and I enjoy it.”

“Have you killed anyone?”

“Yes, Elena. I have. What’s that look on your face, Damon? Didn’t you wanted me to come to the dark side? Now, we’re brothers. You can be proud.”

“Elena, I think we should go.” Damon said.

“I’m not going anywhere! Can’t you see what they’ve done to him?”

“I think they done a beautiful job. Now I can embrace my nature. Finally.”

“Stefan, you talk like the old Damon, just a little exaggerated. We know it’s not you who’s talking.”

“Then who is it? Me?” Klaus asked coming from behind Stefan.

“You could’ve compelled him.” Damon said.

“And where would all the fun remain?” Klaus laughed. “Think whatever you want, but Stefan is free like a bird.”

“In a cage?” Damon challenged him.

“That’s why you end up dying, Damon. Even if you’re his older brother, Stefan is smarter than you. He doesn’t say stupid things that are crossing his mind.”

“Leave, Elena.” Stefan said.

TVD - Chapter 2 - Part 2

So here we have another part from Chapter 2. Enjoy!

“Never!” Elena screamed.

“Oh, look Kale, a sweetheart.” The first vampire said to his friend.

“I can see her Nick. Maybe we should taste her.”

“Don’t you dare going near her!” Damon shouted.

“And what are you going to do about that?” Kale said.

“Anything.”

“He loves her. Klaus told us but I didn’t believe it.” Nick said.

“Yeah, me neither. Well let’s taste the blood of the famous Elena Gilbert.” Kale looked at her white skin, then saw her brown eyes filled with anger and tears.

“Don’t cry, sweetheart. Everything is going to be ok.” Nick said in a low voice.

“You bastards!” Damon shouted. He used his powers and could manage to free his left hand from the chains.

“Idiot.” Kale said through his teeth. “Let’s hold him. Maybe we could torture him first. I think he asks desperately for it.”

“Yeah, Kale, you’re right. Let’s see how much he can endure.”

Both vampires tried to tie Damon again and they succeeded. They took a bottle full with blood and vervain. They forced him to drink it and Damon’s didn’t make a sound. Elena was screaming to let him alone, but who could listen to her? Damon succeeded in making them angry and they wanted him to pay. After he’d been weakened they made little cuts into him with a knife. They were superficial, but increasing in number they became unbearable. Damon couldn’t sustain himself and gave a terrible scream when they spilled on his wounds hot water filled with vervain. Elena was pleading now to stop hurting him. She was crying and that was the only thing that kept Damon going. He watched her tears. Those tears were for him and no pain could take that euphoria that Elena’s crying for Damon from his mind. He might sounded crazy if he ever told this anyone but he knew this was the only reason to keep him sane. He looked deep in her eyes as Kale and Nick were torturing him and he almost smiled for a second when he saw that Elena was trying to send him a message but he couldn’t understand anything. He was almost in agony and wouldn’t last long conscious. But he didn’t care, no because his angel was crying for him. And that was enough. Enough for a lifetime, enough for every trial that may come in the future. After a moment he realized that he couldn’t see anymore. Maybe he already lost his conscious. What did it matter? Oh, but, no, there was something important that he’d forgotten.

“Maybe we exaggerated a little?” Nick said in a comic voice.

“Yeah, looks like we did. But we’ll wait until he wakes up and we’ll torture his girlfriend.” Kale responded.

“No, Kale. She’s Stefan’s girlfriend.”

“Whatever. I don’t care.”

Then Damon remembered. He had to protect Elena. He opened his eyes.”

“Elena? Are you ok?”

She couldn’t say anything because tears were still flowing from her eyes. The vampires burst into laughter.

“Oh, can you see? He’s aware of her condition.” Nick said.

“Let’s make it worse.” Kale smiled.

But then both of them fell to the ground and they heads were spinning in pain. Bonnie came from Damon’s back along with Caroline. The witch untied Elena, while Caroline untied Damon.

“Bonnie… thank you.” Elena said in a hurry and then headed to Damon.

“Elena, don’t go near him! He could be dangerous!” Bonnie shouted.

“I don’t care. Don’t you see how much did he endure for me? He provoked those guys. He suffered so I can be ok.” Elena was still crying and got close to Damon’s ear. “Do you want my blood?” She offered.

“No! Get out of here. Just let Caroline take me to the hotel room. Bonnie get her out of here.”

“Of course.” Bonnie smiled.

“No, Damon, please! You need blood. Damon!”

“Elena, don’t worry, ok? I have some blood in my car. From the hospital. I figured he’ll need some anyway.” Caroline said.

After a few hours, when Damon had healed Elena and Bonnie returned to the hotel room.

“We didn’t have a chance to talk. Why did you take her to find Stefan?” Bonnie asked.

“Because I wanted to.” Damon smiled one of his killer smiles.

“I asked him to drive me. I asked him to go alone without you or Caroline, or anyone else.” Elena said looking down.

“Elena don’t try to protect him.” Caroline said.

“It’s the truth. Damon asked me to take one of you, guys, but I wanted to go alone.”

“But, Elena, why did you lie to me when I did the localization spell?”

“I didn’t want to drag you into this. And anyway I thought that you’d be needed in Mystic Falls more, than with me, if I was gone for a longer time.”

“Why did Damon lie when we first asked about this?” Caroline said.

“Oh, don’t talk like I’m not here. I told you what you wanted to hear.” Damon said.

“Just shut up!” Bonnie said harshly.

“Ouch. That hurt.” Damon smiled ironically.

“What are you going to do now, Elena?” Her vampire friend asked.

“I’ll keep going with our journey. I mean mine and Damon’s.”

“But, Elena, you can’t travel alone with this jerk.” Bonnie said.

“Why not?” Damon asked.

The last person on earth

Today it rained a lot. Rain reminds me of sad days. The sky was so dark, unclear and the wind whispering rain drops felt like it was almost hitting me. And I wanted to stay outside in the wet weather and feel the cold water. But I didn't do it. I always liked rain and at the same time I hated it. Strange feelings came in my mind.

I am wandering in this world now, and it's only me. Yes, I'm the only person left of this planet! Have you ever thought of that? Never crossed my mind, just hundreds of times! What I would do first? I would try to contact anyone. See if that's actually true. I'll open my computer and I will log on in every possible site that I know of and try to find someone. If I don't get an answer, I'll run in the streets and scream "Can anybody hear me?". But nobody will hear me after all. Then, I'll go to friends' houses, and see if they are there, but of course, they won't be.

Am I going insane? No, I'm just alone. I can do whatever I want. I can visit every country. I can own thousand cars, houses, hotels, cities, everything now is mine. I can even eat free whatever and whenever I want. Isn't now boring? No, not at all. But I'm still thinking about finding someone else. But what if I won't like that "someone"? Maybe for the moment, it's better not to find anyone at all.

I keep wandering the streets, eating ice-cream, running free and I am heading to the pet-shop! How come I didn't think of this before? I want a dog to accompany me in this journey. I don't want to be alone!

P.S. Did you ever think of being the last person in this world? Wouldn't it be fun? At least until you get insane :)