Today

Today is the day you are living right now. No matter where you are. Under the night stars, under the sun, under your cold room with your sorrow, or above the skies dreaming about your loved ones this is the present and you have to remember it every time if you want to live the moment.

Today is good and today is bad. Today I have everything and I might lose some things, or maybe I lost them a long time ago, but that doesn't matter anymore. Today I have been given another chance and I'm going to take it. It's my right to live now. It's your right to change what do you believe that expects you.

The decisions I know there are a lot. And it's hard to go one road when you know you can't go back, but that's life. And maybe, just maybe, at some turning point you can go back. But no. The past is a trap that wants you to live with the same mistakes. I make not make much sense to you right now, but one day, if not today, you will understand... I will understand. 

There were two times I talked about today. Once it happened when I felt free and I knew I could go on wherever I wanted. It was time to take another decision. And some time later I did. And it was the good decision. And the second time, it's today and maybe the only time because this is the present. I'm not sure if I want to be free again or if I don't feel it, but I know I don't want to miss things. I don't want to be that person who regrets not doing what I want.

Maybe, in another life, our lives would've been different. But we are here now and we should this life so we can discover later the others. Thank you, Universe, for today!

Come back

Writing has been all I had since the moment I grew up enough to know the world that I was living in. I have abandoned this blog, not because I hadn't visitors, but because I never felt the connection with them. What has made me come back is actually a dream, a dream I had a long time ago and I want to live it, finally.

Some time will pass until I will accomplish my dream, but I will because I have put all my thoughts into it and I'm going to continue to do so.

Blogs are personal, and here you are going to find advice, sadness, happiness and the thoughts that I wanted to share with the world. I started this thinking I could make the world a better place, but then I let darker emotions drag me out from my previous goal. I will take care of this blog and whomever is reading and has come back to see the news: welcome back. 

This time I promise I will not leave for so many months because I have a lot on my mind to share with you and I will continue to do so.

I'll miss you, Summer

Summer ended today, maybe. For many of us it ended yesterday, but for me I'm not sure yet. It didn't feel like autumn. And it's not going to feel no matter if my hands and feet are cold at night, or if at eight o'clock gets dark. In my mind summer it's still going to be there just for another month.

Of course I didn't get to do everything I planned, but at least I'm free now. I can do whatever I want. It's not like I have something in mind, actually I gave up some of my plans. Not worth it :)) I guess we all find ourselves in the position to realize something's not worth fighting for. 

I didn't get a chance to say hello to summer properly, and I'm not sure if I want to say goodbye. I read somewhere (actually on facebook) that the worst thing is to get a glimpse of chance just to realize you're fooling yourself. I disagree. When chasing a dream, no matter if you achieve it, if you can fight even a little, even for nothing it's worth it. Yeah, maybe some things are better off where they are, but until you try you never know what's best. 

Things happen for a reason - no. It's just time that passes fast and some situations that connect, the rest is as special or mundane as you let it be. If you want to learn something from it, it's your decision. Of course, we often choose to forget, to let go...

I try not to believe in destiny, because it doesn't always go the way you want it, and if you're convinced something should happen and it doesn't, you might fall of track.

The ones who don't love

"Without you there is no beauty."

Lie!

The worst feeling that one can get is to believe he/she is happy without his last love or any love, but I said
last" because well you've just forgotten it, whichever that is.. And I say "worst thing" because having such power at hand means never falling in love again. And not because you're hurt, but because you realize you're better off without anyone by your side. Of course, you have a gf/bf for a time, but you'll never love her/him, you finally have the world at your feet and that is devastating, my friend.

Power is the biggest challenge of all. You can't control it. You can't run from it. You like it too much already. And this feeling will make you feel as empty as an abyss. You have this power, but there is no one with whom you can share it. And what is a kingdom without its queen and king together? Emptiness...

You may think this is kind of sad, but come on, it never happened to you to be in love for a time, and then just forget it all and never to be able to feel that again? It never happened to feel the logical arguments how they enter your mind and soul? You never felt you're above all, you can't be misled anymore, you can't be in love because you are at a higher level. And this level is empty. 

There are rare cases when the heart listens to the brain, but when it does, it means no one that you know is good enough for your soul. No one can keep you entertained and still be themselves around you. Maybe the world bores you today, and no one can make the feeling go away. Maybe it was just one love that you wish you had. And now that you're over it, there is no such thing to make you feel again.

You aren't numb. You can laugh, be whoever you want to be, but you aren't able to give attention, at least for a long period of time to someone. I don't know if they deserve it or not, but as long as you don't want them what does it matter anyway?

God, it's so good to be free, and so damn scary not to love anyone! But you won't give up this condition soon because freedom was all you wanted... was all they wanted... now you have it. Enjoy! ^_^

Ever met happiness?

 

Sadly, there are people who don't know how to live. They don't appreciate the little things in their lives, they don't understand the essence of happiness. Dreams are the most beautiful things on earth. And a dream that comes to life it's pure paradise.

I invite you to enjoy the deepest joy in your heart. Don't ask me to tell you what could that be, because you're the only one who truly knows. Reach for your dreams like you would've already achieved them. It's so simple to be happy. Why refuse the best offer that the world has for you? And don't say that now things aren't going so smoothly, because this is just the beginning of the changes that are going to happen. You feel at your best when you reach the light at the end of the tunnel, but why not see the light now? Why don't you look in front of you and see the good things that await to be taken. 

Life it's easy if you believe it. Life has a lot to offer and we are only a part of it. Imagine how it feels when it's complete. Take a little time for yourself and imagine perfection. How good does it feel perfection(the way you understand it)? Don't think that you don't deserve it. You deserve the best, trust me, but only if you want it. 

If you haven't seen it, I recommend you the movie "The Secret". It's a documentary about positive thinking, and not just that, it's the explanation of why people are successful and how good things come into our lives. Of course, you have to make a little effort to think about the things that you like, that's the key, to concentrate on what you want, not on what you hate.

Love is the answer

Behind every smile is love. Whether it is love for a friend, lover, family, for a laughter, for a desire, it is love! And is everywhere we go. Even if we're talking about a devilish sexy smile, it's still love (maybe for the dark, for the wicked, for the devil, BUT LOVE). 

My question and yours have one single answer: love. We're both hoping for a dream to come true. We're both awaiting day by day for wonders to enter our lives. And they will, eventually, when we'll be ready to truly believe, when we would be able to accept the truth behind all the masks, when we can take that much happiness. You may be impatient as I am, but we know the most important secret: it's going to happen, it will soon be true. No more dreaming in our minds, it will become as real as you and I are. 

Nothing is impossible. My faith is eternal. I do believe in the one dream that will make me happy. And I hope that you also have a dream and eventually it will make us happy. This time, I know the end of the story: it's just a beginning of another beautiful story that will materialize into this world in the moment I will blindly believe.

There are no more questions left to ask, because love was the answer to all of them and I hope that love will take us on the right path. I am smiling now, because I know you'll be smiling too when you'll completely understand. 

Secret love

If such thing would exist, would you cherish it? Would you fight to protect your secret love?

You find yourself walking alone on a road. You don't know where you're going but you keep walking. The sky is cloudy and you keep your look down. You pray to god for a sign and a few minutes later it begins to rain.You don't understand what this means. Should you go on to this lonely road or should you do something different?

You keep walking in the rain when she comes, the girl of your dreams. She changes everything. She brings back the sun, she gives your world color, and she makes you have a purpose. You want to be with her, you wish to be happy. You keep hidden this love, because you're afraid it will fall apart. You would write a novel about happiness now and there's nothing in this world you can't achieve. The world is yours.

You live a beautiful love story for some time. But then, you wake up one day and the sky is cloudy again. You don't understand why. You ask an angel because now you can talk to them. The angel tells you that the magic has faded away. "Why?", "Because things can be the same all the time. Eventually someone gets bored or the mechanism simply stops working." The angel responded.

You watch silently as she goes away. The world starts falling apart again.You wake up to reality and you realize there's only one thing you forgot to appreciate in life: yourself. You tried to find everything in someone else and all this time all you had to do was look at yourself and then  A new chapter begins... and you still can't understand: what does it matter after all?

A ghost story... or not just a story...

I have something in my mind. I never thought they exist... I never thought that haunted houses are for real... I never believed until I saw it. I saw them... You can choose to believe me, you can choose to believe is just another ghost story invented by some blogger with imagination... whatever you choose you don't need to find out the truth if you can't handle it. It's hard... trust me.


The story begins on a average day when me and my cousin wanted to see some ghosts. Actually we always wanted to see them but we never believed. I'm not afraid of the dark, I don't believe in supernatural even though all my stories are about supernatural... We heard from our friends about a house that's haunted. The house it is for selling over 2 years... and it has something strange, the air... the rooms... the shoes left at every entrance... And we went there at 7pm and we stayed an hour and we waited. It was still day and nothing appeared. We made our friends liars... and we went home.


But then another day... we wanted to go there again. It was calling us. It is always calling us. 4 ghosts... and the four of us.... It was like 8 pm when everything started. I want you to know there are many buildings... I was with a friend at the main rooms and we where like in the back or something... And there was another door, of course locked (not everything is locked although... but we couldn't enter in the main house anyway) and I approached... I heard a sound like the wind... but it wasn't wind... I heard like a man was I don't know... what he was saying and it was right beside me. I didn't run, I didn't scream. The sound lasted a few seconds and then silence again. I asked my friend "Did you hear that??" and he said "Yes. I heard it." The rest of us were out of the house on a fence.


One of them called me... and I didn't hear it. So I call my cousin to see what happened. I try twice and it says that she is not available and once it doesn't say anything the call just ends. I thought her battery was dead but then I find out that her phone was working perfectly.... I was scared from what I heard and I went for a walk with one of my friends. We waited until it was dark and we entered again... And we saw things I don't want to tell you because they may have been reflections from lights... only there were faces... a girl, her mother, her father.. and someone else... someone we don't remember but we do know that he is a man... We were scared we were terrified... but we didn't leave it was calling for us and it wanted more and more and we wanted more too. Or maybe they wanted us to want more... I don't want to know. 


The moon was on the sky... it wasn't a full moon but its light was pleasant. We were staying on some stairs and in front of us was another building with like 2 rooms. And the door suddenly seemed open. My cousin told me to look from a different angle and the light of the moon was entering in the dark room like the door was for real open a little. I got amazed and we didn't scream. We didn't run but we didn't dare to look closer... to go there to see if it really was open.


The other noises that we heard I won't describe them because they just mean that there is something... well... someone. At 10pm we went home. It was enough. Actually it wasn't but I was staying at my cousin home and we had to go back. On the road we talked about the haunted house and we realized something. I did. I remembered again the light of the moon on the door... but there was a little problem. The moon was behind the house and that light couldn't have been from the moon. It was impossible. And I remember I said it so natural "It's nothing. It's just the light of the moon." And it seemed so natural... until I realized where was the moon actually. 


It still calls us... someway or another.