Today

Today is the day you are living right now. No matter where you are. Under the night stars, under the sun, under your cold room with your sorrow, or above the skies dreaming about your loved ones this is the present and you have to remember it every time if you want to live the moment.

Today is good and today is bad. Today I have everything and I might lose some things, or maybe I lost them a long time ago, but that doesn't matter anymore. Today I have been given another chance and I'm going to take it. It's my right to live now. It's your right to change what do you believe that expects you.

The decisions I know there are a lot. And it's hard to go one road when you know you can't go back, but that's life. And maybe, just maybe, at some turning point you can go back. But no. The past is a trap that wants you to live with the same mistakes. I make not make much sense to you right now, but one day, if not today, you will understand... I will understand. 

There were two times I talked about today. Once it happened when I felt free and I knew I could go on wherever I wanted. It was time to take another decision. And some time later I did. And it was the good decision. And the second time, it's today and maybe the only time because this is the present. I'm not sure if I want to be free again or if I don't feel it, but I know I don't want to miss things. I don't want to be that person who regrets not doing what I want.

Maybe, in another life, our lives would've been different. But we are here now and we should this life so we can discover later the others. Thank you, Universe, for today!

I'll miss you, Summer

Summer ended today, maybe. For many of us it ended yesterday, but for me I'm not sure yet. It didn't feel like autumn. And it's not going to feel no matter if my hands and feet are cold at night, or if at eight o'clock gets dark. In my mind summer it's still going to be there just for another month.

Of course I didn't get to do everything I planned, but at least I'm free now. I can do whatever I want. It's not like I have something in mind, actually I gave up some of my plans. Not worth it :)) I guess we all find ourselves in the position to realize something's not worth fighting for. 

I didn't get a chance to say hello to summer properly, and I'm not sure if I want to say goodbye. I read somewhere (actually on facebook) that the worst thing is to get a glimpse of chance just to realize you're fooling yourself. I disagree. When chasing a dream, no matter if you achieve it, if you can fight even a little, even for nothing it's worth it. Yeah, maybe some things are better off where they are, but until you try you never know what's best. 

Things happen for a reason - no. It's just time that passes fast and some situations that connect, the rest is as special or mundane as you let it be. If you want to learn something from it, it's your decision. Of course, we often choose to forget, to let go...

I try not to believe in destiny, because it doesn't always go the way you want it, and if you're convinced something should happen and it doesn't, you might fall of track.