In love with Lucifer

 

Have you ever been in love with the devil? Even if he looks just like a normal boy with the face of an angel, we all know when the devil has taken control over our lives. "In love with Lucifer" is a horror romance story I'm writing on a website called wattpad.com. I want to make a summary of the story here, because this is very important for me.
The main characters are Helen Whitakers, Lucifer(how could he not be here?) and Melissa Oakley - Helen's friend. That's until now. In the future I may add some more.

First of all, here's the link to the story if you want to read it: In love with Lucifer (it will open in a new window). If you are using mobile here's the code for the story on wattpad: 24883614 (here's the link to the mobile version of the website: m.wattpad.com ). My username on wattpad is: MixSalvatore (I have some stories in Romanian if you are interested).

Helen is a highschool girl who never fell in love. She likes boys, but just not enough. One day she dreams of a handsome man that rescues her. When she looks at his face she discovers he is as beautiful as evil one can be. She's not sure if he's an angel or a demon, but he tells her he is her angel actually. She doesn't want to believe, but when she wakes up from this dream she is confused and starts searching information about the devil. Soon they will meet again, in reality this time. He says he is trying to save her (at a party), but in her mind only damage has been done. 

Melissa has been her best friend for a few years and she is not aware of Helen's encounters with the supernatural. For her, life is simple and dramatic only in the thoughts of boys, highschool and family. Other secrets will lie in her closet too, but more on that later.

Helen's family is not an ordinary family. They also have a lot to hide. Her father will give her a clue on the things, but that raises just more questions than answers in Helen's mind. Lucifer wants her, she claims she hates him and for some time her life is going in the difficult ways because of her connections with the devil. She will find out about a group "The Fallen" who want revenge against Lucifer, and of course, against her. 

She is Helen in my vision.

This story takes place on Earth, Hell, Heaven and a supposed Paradise. You will find out more on the on-going chapters. I am currently at Chapter 4: Insidious Places . If you want to be updated with the new chapters that are coming you can follow me on twitter: @blachshadowangel. 

Come back

Writing has been all I had since the moment I grew up enough to know the world that I was living in. I have abandoned this blog, not because I hadn't visitors, but because I never felt the connection with them. What has made me come back is actually a dream, a dream I had a long time ago and I want to live it, finally.

Some time will pass until I will accomplish my dream, but I will because I have put all my thoughts into it and I'm going to continue to do so.

Blogs are personal, and here you are going to find advice, sadness, happiness and the thoughts that I wanted to share with the world. I started this thinking I could make the world a better place, but then I let darker emotions drag me out from my previous goal. I will take care of this blog and whomever is reading and has come back to see the news: welcome back. 

This time I promise I will not leave for so many months because I have a lot on my mind to share with you and I will continue to do so.

Guilty

I've been asking around "why do I have to be guilty for his/her actions?", "why do I need to take the blame for his/her incapability of moving on?" The best part is that I discovered I don't.

Everyone is responsible for their actions. You are what you think. So, if your happiness is another person, and that person refuses to take that role, you have no right to blame her for your unhappiness. You have the right to say what you like, what you don't want but without stepping on someone else's free will. I thought that I was guilty for their actions. I thought I was guilty for leaving from their lives. I thought I was guilty for ending the story. But no! They are the only ones to blame for all the stubbornness in their head, for not fighting. They all say they love life, but they don't do anything to make things better.

Until tonight I've waited for their demons to come straight at my door and tell me face to face that I'm some kind of monster. This never happened of course, because I'm just a human, and I left like everyone does, and in their hearts they know it's not my fault sincerity and trust were mislead.

It's your choice to let someone into your life, your choice to get over some tragedy, your choice to make friends, to let them down, to confess your love, to shut down your feelings and so on. Your choice to blame someone else for your own faults, to feel guilty for something or to pretend you forgot.

So, beginning with tonight, I am not guilty for your depressions, for your choices, for your "never do anything and go with the flow". I hope you won't drown too much in your own heart, and I hope I won't be there if that happens, because my mood of "I care" might want to jump and save you.