Turning point

If I were to tell you the truth, it would be a sad story. It would be the aspect of life when you have to wake up to reality. The moment when you realize how fragile can be destiny. How many people care and how many more don't. If I were to tell you how much it hurts that you can't turn back time and make a different decision then, and not now when it's too late. Someone said "better later, then never". And yeah, it's better, but where do we find so much power to start over again?

Where is the candle that never stops burning? Where is the image of the future you, the you that has won the battle? Let me answer this question. He's in the future. Yeah, may sound foolish, but you are living now. Actually you are avoiding living now. This moment is the one that you're missing. How can you move further if you're stuck on today? Today will become yesterday. And so many yesterdays that follow you that make you live either in the past, either in the future. Where is your present?

If we were to think about others' problems we'd say "how easy is to solve that", and may be right but that person doesn't see it as we don't see our solution in front of our eyes. There is the answer and it's in desperate need to be found.

You know what's the most impossible wish? To have never been born, this is the definition of the impossible. The rest are details. 

The war with yourself

 

You want to do something, to achieve a goal, to start a new activity, whatever. You make a plan about you should do for your change. On the first everything goes smoothly, but then the next days, you don't have that much ambition and you feel like you want to give up. 

Well, as much as I hate to say it: you're your own enemy. You're fighting between the part that says "come on, get up, do that now" and the part that says "why should you change anything?you'll feel better if you don't do anything". You seriously need to do something about the second part.

Changes are good, but you need to be receptive to the idea that in the beginning is going to be hard to make that change become a habit. What you need is a specific plan among some things that you should remember. First of all, when you want let's say to start tomorrow learning at biology(for example), well you prepare your pen, pencil, you set your alarm clock at the desired hour, you take an empty notebook and you prepare your books. You don't just say "I'll learn starting tomorrow" because that's vague and as you know already: you won't do anything. You'll just watch movies or play games, whatever you're doing in your free time. Secondly, you have to remember that the beginning isn't easy, you need to fight the you that doesn't want to get out of his comfort zone. Think about the final result. Think that if you want to get there you need to put a little effort in what you're doing now. 

The war with yourself doesn't begin and doesn't stop here. It's another problem when you're feeling depressed. That slows you down in everything you do, no matter if you want to have fun or to read a book. Don't be too hard on yourself if you're not feeling well. Everyone has there ups and downs. The big difference is between the ones who want to do something about it and the ones who don't. Listen to a song. Call a friend that makes funny jokes and makes you feel better. Do something you like until you feel better. Don't say it's impossible, because if you want it, everything good can be possible. 

The biggest enemy in your life is you, and maybe you're sick of hearing this, but accepting this truth is the key to understand how can the good part in you win. Knowing yourself is the best weapon. And don't forget that your attitude counts, so if you want to live at your full potential accept change and don't think low on yourself because that will only slow you down.

I know I haven't been discussing this until now, but it seemed a good subject, as it covers many problems with ourselves. Reaching perfection is a foolish thought, but reaching what you really want is the perfect reality.

These problems... these people...

"I wake up to see the morning light, oh, but there is no light. It's just an empty space filled with dust in the wind. I get up from bed and I look at the mirror. What a sad look on my face. I am beautiful, I know I am, I have no disabilities but yet I feel sad, alone and unprotected." - These are feelings of depression. These are the feelings that a person who's suffering on the inside from different reasons says such things. How can I help him or her?


I tried to say that everything has an ending and a better start, but does it really matter? No, I'm just talking in vain, I'm just helping helpless people. They say they want to be saved, but they want to fall deeper and deeper. I'm not saying you don't have a real problem, or real problems, but if you want advice you have to be prepared to fight, prepared to change things into better if you really want to go on.


I don't understand why say you want to fight when you actually want to devour all the sins in the world? When you want to die, to make people suffer, to make you suffer? Why say you're a fighter? You wanna scream your problems but you don't want to solve them. You want to just be proud to have those problems. Love it. Embrace it! Why don't you put an end to it I have no idea!