Darkness within

I think I discovered darkness. It has no face, but desire. It has no language at all, it's all in the deepest of your heart. It's no use to say "no", it's no use to say "yes" it simply stands there before you and it has no conscience. 


Darkness has no color, no end, no beginning. It doesn't embrace you, though. You embrace it with all your soul. You can chose this path, you can fool yourself it's not you who's deciding, but then, wouldn't you be a little childish? If it's not you who's making decision. who is then? Don't tell me it's God nor the Devil. Don't tell me it's your friend.


This darkness brings happiness and it fills your heart. I'm sure anyone experienced this at least one time in their lives. I guess it took me long enough to realize it's about dark, it took me long to figure it out I was the one who made the choices. It's like I would listen to my dark angel, not the one sent by God. And I want to let you know he doesn't want me to fail, he wants to see me up high with my dreams fulfilled. You may say I'm crazy, you may say I'm a satanist, but you know it's not true. You've experienced this before, even if not at the same intensity.


As I was saying, I discovered darkness, but I don't wish people to suffer. At least not all the people :) 






Happy Holidays!

Wanting the impossible

It's not about love, it's not about envy, not even about hatred, it's all just about wanting one cannot have, the impossible. It attracts you to the dark side, to doing immoral things, who knows...


You find yourself today saying that you have everything you want, but still, you want more. You're curious why? First, because it's exciting, second because it's challenging, and third because, well, you don't have something and wouldn't be such a bad idea to have it. 


The impossible wants you to have it so badly, why refuse the opportunity, the fight of having it all, of reaching perfection? But we both know that there is no such thing as perfection. Want to seek for it? Be my guest, but do not say you were not warned that it's an interminable road with no destination. Has anyone achieved the perfect life? If so, I'd like to know that story.


Dreams... what are dreams for? They help you set goals, but after you achieved those, you will dream more. And those dreams are deceiving, they make you believe you have to fight for them, but if you do, you'll lose it all. Let me give you an example so you can understand better what I'm saying. Let's say you have a successful career. You're an architect, but you've discovered recently that writing is one of your hidden talents. You start writing novels and give up your current job. No one acclaims you for your work pieces because there are a lot of people who write books and the society doesn't need you on this domain. You've just lost your perfect job because of a new dream, new desire. You need to separate these categories of dreams. 


It's your choice in the end, your risk, but time and life do not forgive.

Life = a masquerade

Hi guys. I'm sorry I haven't been writing in a while, but I've been busy with school. Today I remembered something very important about the people. They always want to seem something they aren't. It's not they're not good persons, or they don't have enough talents, but they just need something else. Sometimes I wonder why, and sometimes the answers.

Welcome to  the masquerade. Here you will find impressive costumes and beautiful masks, insidious creatures, angels, but who are they? Their names fade away with the night. That happens with those who are not real, who only want to be acclaimed for something, it doesn't matter what, just being in the center of the attention gives them satisfaction.


Please, enter this room; here you'll find incredible lies to build up your perfect life, here you'll find advice on how to kill feelings, but what you're actually going to do is to destroy the very last drop of truth in your eyes. Why? Why is it you who isn't pleased with life? How much the satisfaction lasts? An hour? A day? A week? How much do you have to suffer to get on moving with your false hobbies, broken dreams and naive personalities? And even when you say "thank you", is that a real "thank you"? Did you mean it? Or you'll just stab me in the back when I turn around. 

Is this costume of a warrior helping you hide your cowardliness? Is this you? Can you recognize yourself in the mirror? All dressed up, speaking some strange words that don't define you, talking to high class people and making your real friends losers? Who are you? Still remember that?


Welcome to the Masquerade...

Halloween

Of course I had to write something about this day. In my country is not celebrated and I'm sorry for that, because I think it's a way to escape routine.

A part of October and a part of November represent the month Heshvan in the Jewish calendar which has no religious holiday. It's the only month in the whole year with no religious holiday. Halloween is considered something dark, spooky and some say it's unorthodox, but I see it as a party, something fun, a way to do something different.

It is said that today it's the best day for communicating with spirits. The line that separates the living from the dead is very thin. I don't intend bringing some army of the dead, or zombies, I'm just curious about the unseen and unknown. I know, you're going to say that curiosity killed the cat, but the cat was curious about the dog, and well dogs hate cats in general, so the dog killed the cat, but we're not interested in that. I wonder what ghosts do in this very special day. Do they try to communicate with us? Can they have more power than usual? I guess there's not an official answer to that, but somewhere, someone knows these things. 

I'm sorry that I won't do anything special this Halloween, maybe watching a few horror movies, eating chocolate and making some spooky pictures. But I believe that in some part of this world, it doesn't matter where, if it's official or not, something really exciting will happen. Maybe people will see a ghost, maybe destinies will change and I'll wait to find out the mystery.

I'm not superstitious, I'm not a satanist, I'm christian and I believe in the supernatural. This world is huge and so complex, so it's not possible to have just normal things happening around it.

The ugly truth

I'll tell you a story that I've written. Not all of it of course. There were once two vampires and they were seeking for love. Each one found a girl. The girls were not perfect, but they got along with mistakes, with joy until one day. The second vampire finds out that his love was cheating on him. She had a lover that was her actual boyfriend that lived abroad. He gets mad and kills them both. That's not called love. The first vampire thinks he's in love and gets killed by the girl that he once helped.


What I want to point out is that they didn't love each other. Their love was just casual dates with some feelings, but nothing special, nothing to last. I wanted to create a love story, but I couldn't because their relationships were too simple. I needed complicated stories and fights for this "true love" that they were so madly seeking. Later, they discover a lot of interesting things about life and that's why the story goes on. And I always keep their love life at a miserable level, so they'll never get boring.


Let me give you an example, so you would understand better. In Vampire Diaries most fans love Damon and Elena's story, but if Damon was Stefan, they would've died to see Stefan and Elena. We like to have things we can't. We say we like simple things, but we love to stay awake at night and think about our stupid complicated lives. We need to be entertained or we lose the interest. As long as Damon and Elena won't be together they'll remain the main subject, but now that Stefan can't be with Elena too, fans are changing sides, because let's face it we love the bad Stefan. 


So the ugly truth is that we can't be happy just by feeling it. We need action and drama.

Ian Joseph Somerhalder

Here are some pictures and information about Ian Somerhalder.


Born in December 8 1978(currently 32 years old)
Best production: Vampire Diaries
Other productions: Lost, How to make love to a woman, The Tournament, Fireball, Pulse, Lost City Raiders.
He's 1,77, blue eyes, dark hair.
One of the movies that I have been impressed: Pulse.
And has an appearance in Smallville as Adam Knight in 2004 for 6 episodes (not a big role, but I'm also in love with Smallville.


I know there're a lot of sites with information about Ian, but I'm a little obsessed here. I will also share a few pictures modified by me with you guys. 


Why do I like him: he doesn't show his age, he's handsome, he's charismatic, he's a good actor and he has a big heart (he loves animals) and has his own foundation named Ian Somerhalder Foundation.

TVD S03E01

As you know I'm obsessed with Vampire Diaries. I have some screenshots from season 3, the first episode. They don't have high quality because I haven't got the blue ray version of the episode yet, but it's something anyway. Enjoy.