After one liter of Coke xD

 

Hello, world. Finally I have some energy, actually I have so much that I could spend it with everyone. What I want to talk about are some little things we need to confront in life.

Let's begins with those who talk nonsense (I know I can write a whole novel about this subject, so I'll only be covering a little of it). For example, I was coming home today, and a neighbor was talking with my grandma. I knew it was better if I avoided them, but that's life. Well, my neighbor started talking about how careful I need to be in life, to learn, to find a husband, and from here begins the drama. He said that my grandma should find me a husband, a good one of course. God, I so hate this discussions. I said "good day" and I left. Normally, that's called rudeness. I call it "avoiding stupid conversations".

Today I discovered I had a song (which unfortunately I can't share because it's in Romanian) with these very interesting lyrics. It tells a story that's funny and unnecessary; very similar to one of mine. But you know that moment when destiny follows you, and when the ironic situations reappear when you least expect them. Although I don't believe in destiny: one makes his own road, sometimes things happen that trigger different emotions like: ironic laughter, sarcasm, pain, memories (worst ones), drama and of course the "I told you so" phrase (my favorite one, followed by some mad laughter).

The best moments in my life are the ones when I don't love. And right know, it's perfect. I can choose anyone I want to, I can search slowly for the right person without "the blind effect" (you know when you're in love). I'm so sorry for the ones who suffer for some guy/girl that doesn't deserve. Best advice is to move on. Live your life. Be selfish for a while.

Do you know how it's like when no one understands you? Well, they don't need to. It's enough if you understand yourself. I mean you know best why you did something and what for. You know your goal, where you want to get to. Yeah, it's hard, but that the price for being unique (but try not to fall into the superficial act).

These are all the truths I can share today. I hope so, at least. More would be... too much? I love Coke ^_^

The war with yourself

 

You want to do something, to achieve a goal, to start a new activity, whatever. You make a plan about you should do for your change. On the first everything goes smoothly, but then the next days, you don't have that much ambition and you feel like you want to give up. 

Well, as much as I hate to say it: you're your own enemy. You're fighting between the part that says "come on, get up, do that now" and the part that says "why should you change anything?you'll feel better if you don't do anything". You seriously need to do something about the second part.

Changes are good, but you need to be receptive to the idea that in the beginning is going to be hard to make that change become a habit. What you need is a specific plan among some things that you should remember. First of all, when you want let's say to start tomorrow learning at biology(for example), well you prepare your pen, pencil, you set your alarm clock at the desired hour, you take an empty notebook and you prepare your books. You don't just say "I'll learn starting tomorrow" because that's vague and as you know already: you won't do anything. You'll just watch movies or play games, whatever you're doing in your free time. Secondly, you have to remember that the beginning isn't easy, you need to fight the you that doesn't want to get out of his comfort zone. Think about the final result. Think that if you want to get there you need to put a little effort in what you're doing now. 

The war with yourself doesn't begin and doesn't stop here. It's another problem when you're feeling depressed. That slows you down in everything you do, no matter if you want to have fun or to read a book. Don't be too hard on yourself if you're not feeling well. Everyone has there ups and downs. The big difference is between the ones who want to do something about it and the ones who don't. Listen to a song. Call a friend that makes funny jokes and makes you feel better. Do something you like until you feel better. Don't say it's impossible, because if you want it, everything good can be possible. 

The biggest enemy in your life is you, and maybe you're sick of hearing this, but accepting this truth is the key to understand how can the good part in you win. Knowing yourself is the best weapon. And don't forget that your attitude counts, so if you want to live at your full potential accept change and don't think low on yourself because that will only slow you down.

I know I haven't been discussing this until now, but it seemed a good subject, as it covers many problems with ourselves. Reaching perfection is a foolish thought, but reaching what you really want is the perfect reality.

Darkness within

I think I discovered darkness. It has no face, but desire. It has no language at all, it's all in the deepest of your heart. It's no use to say "no", it's no use to say "yes" it simply stands there before you and it has no conscience. 


Darkness has no color, no end, no beginning. It doesn't embrace you, though. You embrace it with all your soul. You can chose this path, you can fool yourself it's not you who's deciding, but then, wouldn't you be a little childish? If it's not you who's making decision. who is then? Don't tell me it's God nor the Devil. Don't tell me it's your friend.


This darkness brings happiness and it fills your heart. I'm sure anyone experienced this at least one time in their lives. I guess it took me long enough to realize it's about dark, it took me long to figure it out I was the one who made the choices. It's like I would listen to my dark angel, not the one sent by God. And I want to let you know he doesn't want me to fail, he wants to see me up high with my dreams fulfilled. You may say I'm crazy, you may say I'm a satanist, but you know it's not true. You've experienced this before, even if not at the same intensity.


As I was saying, I discovered darkness, but I don't wish people to suffer. At least not all the people :) 






Happy Holidays!